I have come to the conclusion that I need to savor this feeling of unmotivation and live it before I could sift through what is really going on. I feel particularly unmotivated today. I am observining as you do when you are mindful. The book by Thích Nhất Hạnh called The Art of Mindfulness is where I got this idea. While he says observe everything you do including mundane activities, like grabbing something from the table. I think it could be applied to feeling empty. I feel empty and instead of judging it , it would be better to live it and see if the root of it all becomes visible to me by merely letting myself feel the emptiness whenever and wherever it may strike.

It is not easy, I tell you but I am going to attempt it. The feelings I had years ago when my life and career were unfolding nicely have disspated and now I am going to let that void guide me. I need all the help I could get and yes, spiritually, I am going to seek there and other routes like reading, writing as I do here, and talking to others.