LIBRARIAN BLUES?!

I am a reference librarian in NYC. I have been at this governmental library for almost 4 years. I previously worked in libraries but after receiving my MLIS, this is my first job as a professional librarian. I am grateful for many things as I reflect my being here and they are concrete and practical reasons. On the other hand, I am feeling sluggish, lacking motivation and the passion I had for librarianship is gone. I had many ideas and thought I could let my creativity soar - make them a reality once I got a position like this. As it turns out, our library has no budget, collection development is scarce and there are other problems I won't get into just yet. That will be an entirely different post.

Because I seem to be getting down, I had to look to the web, at least for now, and see what other creature librarians are saying and doing. I was glad to muster up at least that bit of drive because that is something which I have not had all winter long. It's like S.A.D. or seasonal affective disorder whereas I am afflicted with lack of drive, enthusiasm and could plainly NOT CARE about my situation. I call it L.S.A.D. ( no it's not a drug) it's librarianship stinks affective disorder, and as corny and uncreative as it is, that's what I feel. If the ship sinks, I will go with it...now reflecting more...I won't let it sink! HELP!

In writing my tale of woe I must remeber the good things I have within this organization:

• Opportunity to use the silence as a tool plan
• A good routine/consistency
• My family & I are financially above the water
• I am gaining experience serving the public
• My reference skills have improved many times over

On that note, I know I am here for a reason and when it will be time take my ship to its dock it will be the right time too. For now, I need energy, positive energy to get me to be the person I was when I graduated 4 years ago and find out where I could use my work ethic and vision to make it a reality.

I found this uplifting page about librarians...The stereotypes still alive but these folks aren't a shabby bunch and I could say I am not bothered at all to be part of this group :-)

LINK : http://lookslikelibraryscience.com/